thou has come too far to let go..

Ok quite a few issues have happened recently. First, my Ez link card got confiscated by the OM coz i walked right into him with my long hair, 2nd the discovery that Free Access Room 213 has warcraft 3, 3rd the numerous AVA commitments that have agitated me a little, 4th Shawn leaving AJC, and 5th, Vanessa's decision to go poly, and 6th the TABOO game. Plz read to the end.

The first issue confirms the OM's stupidity. He confiscated my ez link, and told me to see him the next day. I didnt, and it dragged to the next week. I was drinking milo while walking to LT3, and bumped into that old man again, and he asked 'boy gimme ur card'(the same thing he said, and always says... his vocab sux..) AND HIS MEMORY TOO! LOL i laughed right in his face and said 'i gave u already' :P Then he asked 'when are u supposed to see me?' (it was supposed to be the next day after he caught me but he forgot apparently), so i said 'today lor' wahahha damn funny. Anyway he asked me to cut again! and that was when i decided using coins to take bus -_- wadeva, i dun like short hair.. i look weird in it.

WOWOW which computer genius/genuises installed warcraft 3 on the pc's, but that sure rox man. Every break i would rush with sky, yijun to play it! and i even ponned 2 lessons to play man... SHHH :D I am addicted to spider solitaire!!! ITS SO FUN AND IT MAKES U THINK!! lovely strategy/thinking game, i even played it till late in the night.

AVA is a slack cca, but u get to slack till very late in school being involved in events... a specific example: today, in the morning, i had samba drums. Now this event probably made me angry for the first time in AJC. I helped set up the equipment in the band room, and went out to play chess with qinxue. Gideon rox, he skipped his poetry workshop when the instructor told the ppl to stand up and close their eyes wahahha. So we were there playing chess, and few teachers questioned us, but we easily got away with the fact that we were AVA ppl. Then this teacher came along, and kept pressing us, finding faults PURPOSELY, relentless in arguing and proving us wrong, just for the sake of arguing, so i niaoed her back, and she got pissed. Naturally under such oppressive and insulting conditions, one's face would turn black, and mine did, and she wasnt happy about that... (isnt it my face? well..teachers haf the right man..) and so there went the principal threat or wadeva... sure go tell him my face turned black..

Ok here's a big issue: Shawn leaving AJC and the whole thing about attendance. Yes Shawn definitely has the benifit of doubt like Georgia pointed out, and i believe he has his reasons, for noone would want to skip school with 34/04 around :D But yet again, nothing can be known if he doesnt really mention the real reason. Yea some ppl's immune system are weak, and they fall ill, so that cannot be blamed. But apparently the school rules seem to restrict an overload of MCs/parents letters. Shawn was on the top for term 3 and 4, with 16 absences, next was sky, with 8, then dwayne with 6 and vanessa with 5. I believe that everyone can come to school, its all a matter of endurance, and the will to push urself. If such a will is present, no sickness can stop u. yes i agree school can be boring sometimes, and its not like i totally dont get sick, but i still come, coz there are friends there, and pw group might need me... other than that, i juz adopt a positive thinking and yea.. dunno how to further say it, but other than exercising more and taking multi vitamins, lets all improve together :D

continuing from just now, which i deviated from the original point of shawn leaving AJC, i believe that its really really sad. First Yiting, Kay Yin. Then Cindy, Hwee sian. Next Eric who decided wrongly, and regretted. who else? i simply cant remember... our class is truely unique... now its shawn.. sigh. I wont say that he is angelic, everyone has his/her bad points, but he is a good friend of mine (at least i treat him as one :) ), and ill always remember him, as part of 34/04, as how friends should really be, unbroken by time and distance. Shawn, its gonna be real tough for u as the memories flood back, good or bad. But AJC will definitely leave a mark in ur life, for u to look back upon(we can always go train sometime :) ) The class will miss u... sigh.. its tragic that it has come down to this, but if u feel its a load off ur heart, i respect ur decision... farewell friend.. :'(

Vanessa!! Going to poly?! oh god if ur reading this PLZ re-consider. first, a true-life example is right in front of ur eyes: ERIC! he decided to go poly coz the routine and stresses of study life in AJ were too much, and he though he could find better, more friendly ppl in poly, and that the stress would be less. Though both haf their goods/bads, im in favour of JC, and i hope my thoughts can influence urs. Firstly, feedback from eric is that poly ppl arent of that 'intellectual level', and he finds it hard to communicate with them. This could be true, but there are definitely those bright sparks inside. The ppl are mostly 'ah bengs' who arent very nice... aside from that, u'll have to make new friends again! It isnt easy fitting into a new environment again and getting ppl to noe u as they do now... and u might never know what kinda ppl u will meet.. true if u dont explore, ull never meet new friends, but all the alienation and loneliness stuff might arise again, and the settling into a class isnt easy too. Second, Poly is not an easier route. Project work is stressful, and on top of that there are numerous tests as well, and lessons can drag till very very late, with many breaks - waste of time. True, the wearing of home clothes thing is cool, but the disadvantages far outweight that. 3Rd, u have found such a lovely class: 3404, a most unique and special class which is ever so lively, encouraging, understanding, caring and joyous, a united class of friendship,surely u wouldnt bear to leave it, and AJC, where all ur dear friends are! That feeling is like flesh being torn from you, and ERIC sure felt that. He wailed 'hsien why didnt u lock me up and stop me!?' he realised that AJ is his true home where all his friends reside, and he really regretted his decision. Another thing: track and training, yea, on ur own u wouldnt get the motivation to train, thus track is like a compulsory training so... yea.

But yet u may argue that if ur happy, why not. yea, eric said that too, and i told him to 'pursue his dreams, and if it makes u happy, carry on'. Maybe its all in the decisiveness.. maybe he couldnt make up his mind... i dunno about u vanessa, but ... if its for happiness.. i cannot refute that point coz happiness is everything to a person. What makes u happy keeps u alive, and gets u going to greater heights. But it definitely will be a great impact to all ur friends, and yes tears will be shed. So wadeva u do, plz re-consider. Words typed out leave deeper impressions, and i hope this can leave u contemplating, and making a real decision. haha given ur command of language and intellect, u would definitely score in mass comm, yea... but choose wisely... :)

Ok the new game called TABOO, introduced by our GP teacher Ms Low, is damn fun haha. A game of guessing words through another's description, in which the describer cannot use certain words similar to the actual word to be guessed. Yea.. thought provoking, and through that many geniuses were revealed... like Mark, Gideon, and Dwayne who have great knowledge of the outside world. Ppl describe things differently too and its quite interesting to note. Yes i noe i love to gesture lol... haha vanessa was funny man... singing songs! anw.. mark and his impersonation of George Bush was great... haha a real entertainer... :) yup... ive blogged enough... its a super long entry, longest/2nd longest since that 'friends' post i made ages ago. As with this post, it addresses some important things, so plz take ur time to read, and enjoy.
Rock on forever 34/04, love everyone.

Ok here goes :D

HELLO EVERYONE!!!! Today was a MEMORABLE day and i just had to blog about it. Today we had BBQ at my place!! It was sooo fun, and so many things happened. Ill attempt to recall everything in order of timeframe.

Ok after that bornig pw from 8am to 1pm, and after sneaking away to have breakfast at NYP with my pw group, we left for home. Saw ms low sometime during pw, and she was all dressed up ready to go out i think lol. I rested till 3pm when i met dwayne, gayle, aiping, and sky to buy stuff. Bought all the utensils and food including marshmallows! :D There was alot of food, and Denise arrived while we were buying food, wearing a cool dress with shiny things around the shirt-lines. Cool fashion ;) Gideon was there with Yijun also. After carrying the stuff to me house, we started preparing, and i was like continuously running up and down from my house, wearing my shoes, taking it off again. Many ppl had to use the toilet, and some came to see the house :D Yea showed ppl ard, and showed aipnig, gayle etc to the toilets while sky, yijun, youjun played jedi knights 2 in the air-con room. It was so fun lor. Oh yea and thanks dwayne and whoever who bought that ferraro rocher for me/my parents, we appreciate it alot :)

And so ppl came one by one, and yuying arrived in cab with many things like bee hoon etc. The barbecue started not long after at 7.10 pm when the lights were on. We had chicken wings, sausages, marshmallows, satay, bee hoon, rice dumplings etc. There was alot of drinks, but no ice!!argh my fault i forgot to tell Jasper, was too busy rushing about. Took several pictures. Eric came too. We had beer drinking competitions, and crazy talk about condoms! omg lol.. i cant believe i drank beer... vanessa said one bottle equals 3 bowls of rice!!! i drank about a bottle.. but nothing leh... haha dunno. oh man... i ate alot of 'shit' today, and am sure to put on weight... weird thing is i looked much thinner/haggard after running about today... so tired.

Yea and there was the 'push-ppl-into-swimming-pool' game, where gayle, vanessa, and yuying got wet. Yuying and Vanessa swam for awhile b4 the guard came and juz gave a little talk about proper attire. No worries guys, the guard was friendly, and no trouble caused at all :) So yea i wanted to swim too but shy ... haha. Visited the gym and everyone had some fun, when vanessa discovered her ankle was bleeding.. sometimes u get a cut and dont notice it... tts how the mind can mask pain when we're having fun :)

Eric and Ms Ng came!! we had so much fun, and eric was full of tales as usual... seeing everyone together having so much fun juz made me so happy, and i tried to make everyone happy, and thus everyone is happy!!! lol ... yea it's real fun juz being a class and talking cock... class unity! some ppl were eating and some were barbecuing, but i tried to keep those barbecueing company so they would not feel alone... One shd never walk alone when friends are around... probably tts why i was so busy rushing about today...

Almost everyone came up to me house, and Mark's arrival was the finale. He sang SO MANY songs(his memory of songs rox) and his singing ROX! WOW my mom and dad were full of praise, and even my sis took her hat off to him, saying that 'ppl who can play and sing are very talented'. heh, mark u shd join singapore idol! ur better than christopher lee :P Everyone was enthralled by mark and his lovely singing, and eric was taking pics with us. Sky was in the room playing jedi knights 2. and this was the time when Ms Ng came, and Georgia too. I din really noe wad happened downstairs coz we were all upstairs... so if anyone missed out on any fun, sorry :( The scenary at night is especially spectacular with those underwater lights, and building lights against a dark starry sky, illuminated by the glowing green of the water. luckily everyone promoted, so we can enjoy more of such times together next time!! :) Some ppl had to go early, and jieyi was the first to go, and it was raining, so i accompanied her out to the busstop. yea then afterthat it was packing up time, which was rather messy, and me mom came down to help. Thanks guys for helping, and helping to make this bbq a success :) hope u all enjoyed it... oh ya threw away alot of food.. sobs could have fed hungry children :( yea those that could be salvaged i took home, and yea.. im tired and aching lol. AND HUNGRY! (not tt i din eat, i juz wasted too much energy)

I had alot of fun today, and i hope everyone had. Today was great fun, and definitely will be one of my memorable times, and i hope i made it one for all of u too :) Friends forever man, 34/04 is really one unique, hell of a class!!! ROX! stay happy everyone, haf a good rest, those watching midnight movie dun get too tired or anyhow do stuff! lol. cya ard on monday, OH NO HISTORY HOMEWORK! wahaha we haf excuse :P (oh too drunk~~~) haha kk im laming... i go see tv and think about wad happened today le... cant sleep yet though im tired, coz so many things happened today.. OH YA, my mom commented that the class very nice/polite! haha :P OH NO I HAVEN CUT HAIR!!! NOOO lim kok wee's gonna lock me in school and cut hair for 2 days... wahahha im lame. kk nitez everyone, cya ard, rock on ;)

life...inspiration..

*stretches* ... i just woke up from a long nap... and am feeling rather refreshed, with new inspiration to blog! Its after the promos, and the initial whoopie and bouncing about has almost worn away... now all thats left is boredom. Sitting in front of your com the whole day just leads you to question your presence in life and its intended course - what are we here for, what is our purpose? I go to school solely to see my friends and be with them, friends are what keep me alive and draw me to this lovely school! But aside from that, something seems amiss as i wander in the school, staring into blankness and wondering what life will bring next. Inspiration... to do what? I just read a friend's blog, and i cant help but think about 'the desire to win'

Our life is about constantly improving ourself, be it academic or social excellence. Competition is an essential tool, and some people get that thrill out of beating a worthy opponent and winning :) But some take it to the extent that it affects their life when they lack such a desireable feeling. Well in response to this, i feel that we should compete only when necessary, other than that, we should run together alongside our friends, never overtaking them, always by their side, just like how we run together in 2.4 Friends are what keep you alive, and without friends, you might not even get a feeling of competition, so yea we should all be competitive, but in a healthy way, and take it in a positive light that 'at least ur having fun with ur dear friends :)

Dramatisation of life... emotionally sensitive people tend to dramatise their feelings, meaning exaggerate it such that it affects their mental health, and they are over cautious or sensitive to certain issues. I think we should all live our lives happily, and try to be content with what we have right now. lets say we haf an injury, we should think positive that it will be healed soon, and not be sad over how we might lose ability to walk. Psychologically, if we keep on thinking that way, it might really come true as we're in a constant state of depression - so why put urself in such misery, when we can just think happy thoughts all the time? Sometimes we imagine things, and let the 'green-eyed monster' take control of things. Jealousy can mould vision into a distorted one, and it can make us someone we're not. 'a horned man's a monster and a beast' It can induce feelings of hatred, loss, and helplessness, leading to possesiveness, transforming u into someone so scary that u cannot recognise urself. I think this is all up to the individual... everyone is different and unique, and jealousy is just part of this unique feature. But we should not let it distort our vision and over imagine things that are not actually happening. Such feelings of loss and jealousy can eventually lead to, worse come to worst, insanity.

A fren quoted:
dun leave me hanging on a thread, either cut me loose or pull me up. This is really thought provoking.. and it involves the thought about friendship - in this case i would always pull my friend up. Sometimes people do things without knowing they hurt you, and sometimes we just gotta learn to accept that, and stomach it. I dont think people really mean it when they hurt you... probably just their character. And as long as u noe someone, even if its an acquaintance, there will always be care for that person no matter what. U will not die unnoticed; when u come into this world ur crying and everyone is smiling - as long as there are friends by ur side, u will leave this place smiling, with everyone else crying. Friends are not easy to come by, and i believe everyone cherishes friendship too :) Some choose not to express their feelings, some choose to write them out, but its all the same, we all care for our friends. Sigh... its getting rather borin nowadays with PW the bore of the century. Anyway, that aside, 34/04 still rox man... its one funky class yea. :)

I just HAD to blog about today

Today rox!! I just have to blog about it coz there were so many nice events today. Ok first was pw at 8.30am in the MORNING at Orchard MRT coz Georgia had to work. I reached there on the dot, and the venue was changed to Far East Plaza - i din noe where that was! haha den Georgia called me and directed me all the way! she was a good guide haha, i reached in no time - thanks gg! Ate the breakfast set at Yakun Kaya, den talked crap while playing with Mark's tennis ball! OH MAN that tennis ball was the highlight of my day - played with it non stop thruout the whole day. Our pw actual discussion only commenced and lasted for about 15 minutes, before which we were listening to interesting tales of Georgia :) Anyway we just allocated stuff and rushed off for shopping! Stupid pw can wait man. It was so fun shopping, and playing with the tennis ball! It rolled onto the road twice and got rolled over by a car, heng nvr explode! :D Anyway we went into this branded shop, and i was like squatting down and playing the ball... ppl were staring lol. But i was having fun! :P ya it was fo fun walking about and talking cock. AND TODAY, I TOOK MY FIRST NEO PRINT!! Omg so fun! woowow, and the pics were so cute! georgia just had to add that 'shit' on me head, and those bunny ears... anyway i enjoyed it and am gonna take more next time :)

Ok on the journey home with mark, we talked alot of things, yea and they were quite philosophical. Had a nice talk with a good friend :) we must always cherish friends around us! :) when i reached home i realised i had to go out with me 'family' at 4.30! i forgot about the time and played pokemon, den got a shock when it was 4.10 and i was still at home. I rushed there, only to find out the movie started at 7.05 -_____-. It was one of the longest waits ever. We walked around the whole of Plaza Sing looking at all the shops and doing shopping. Went to see books also. When the movie finally started... i enjoyed EVERY PART OF IT - JACKIE CHAN NEW POLICE STORY ROX!!! OMG! I CRIED!! The movie combined humor(lots of it... damn funny laff till sides ached), emotion, and lotsa ACTION! it also imcorporated thought provoking values like how computer games can lead to crimes, and how parents use money to breach the gap between love and material. Many more, a definite must watch. So the day ended like that, took the train home and met some friends on the way. Had a long talk with joanne, and yea that was about it. OH YA! On the way back in my bus, I REALISED I NEVER ZIP MY PANTS EVER SINCE AFTER THE MOVIE IN THE TOILET!! Why do i keep on forgetting! its not the first time in this week already omg. had a bawl of laughter over it. Took off my sunglasses, coz it was too dark le haha. so tired. go slack le
Tmr still got pw sian... but good thing is can meet friends again. :)

updated again

Ok guys many many things happened since the last time i blogged. Well, in fact not so many lar. Took history and lit papers. Quite ok... hope can pass. Well, my last minute work was definitely dam exhaustive. I feel like a panda bear. Slept everynight at 4am sustaining myself with coffee. Sian, but ITS OVER!!! Damn happy, can hop about like mad :S Oh ya i loved the lit poems. The one about the neighbour, its so nice and thought provoking, especially when it concerns stuff like confinement and solitude, things to do with psychology... so mysterious and facinating :)

Then came the tragedy of unfILLED question papers- Econs today! I din study at all... exams was over yesterday for me... so yea basically stoned or slept, and the teachers were like staring when i only handed up two pages of nonsense! oh man... so screwed. Anyway... hmm, i 'pia'ed computer games before the econs test man... so fun to have freedom again! freedom for sleep, and no stress at all! SO HAPPY ARGHZ. but the festive season often means not being able to see friends again... sigh, then boredom sets in, so 34/04, hope to see u in the hols! :)

Went out today, saw the exorcist - it was COOL, with violence and anti-christ thingys, but thats not the cool part, in fact it was gross. The cool part is the effects and the storyline. Its not a lousy show, and is quite nice. Had quite some fun today. I wore those sunglasses and a new white shirt... yea everything seemed so dark under those glasses man. i even wore it at night, and ppl were staring... i forgot its 'SUN'glasses -_-. Then went to eat and talk cock with Gideon, Mark, Jasper. Damn fun lar, Gideon treated us to some drinks and food, so nice of him. Yea we also ate dinner at Yoshi. Other ppl who went are Denise, Yuying, and her friend. Yep had a blast today, and am exhausted. Two friends birthdays both on 7th and 8th October, so happy birthday to these guys. In the meantime, ill go slack already. Blogging sorta lost its taste after the exams.. maybe write too much le. Anyways, bb till next time

Finally updated

Sian! its the time of the promos, and ive been too busy to blog since friday. But let me just share a few nice things that happened. On Saturday it was my birthday and i went out with me 'family' for celebration! They bought me this cute little dalmation with my name tag round it! So cute man, thanks a bunch i loved it. Then we had lunch at pastamania and talked alot of cock. The beef bolongse (or how u spell it) was damn nice, and i added like half the can of cheese inside *slurrrpz* i even ate the cheese on its own. Oh ya then yijun told me about the biggest security camera he had ever seen, which was enclosed in a round black ball, and we kept laughing. After that we went to study at woodlands library. Saw Dehai and the rest from tchs, and we chatted awhile. Oh ya before going into the library we went on a shopping hunt and i bought two packets of sweets - gonna be fat in no time - stupid promos :S anyway i ate all the sweets up without and water, and was almost dying of thirst, so i drank chocolate milkshake! fats!! oh man, but it sure tasted good. Then we sat at the stage area and studied, but i couldnt concentrate, and had to keep reading what i read two lines before -_- Finally went home and that ended the wonderful birthday.

More mugging to do... im giving up econs, as im gonna fail the essay on monday. GP was SUCKY, i think my AQ write out of point - got too engrossed in what i was writing... narrative thingy. Sighz... retained after all. Then i pia history till very late, and drank super thick home-brewed coffee with milk at 11am, and studied til 4am. Sigh... it helped... the history test today went quite well as all that i studied came out. :) tmr is lit, gotta rush home le. Vanessa just returned me my Jude notes, and ive gotta rush home to study Othello le. till next time, ill be back with more experiences in J1 :P:P

love brings wealth and happiness: edit!

i read this email from yijun talking about a story concerning love, wealth, and happiness visiting the home of a family. If u invited wealth, which symbolizes greed, then happiness and love will leave. But if love is welcomed, happiness and wealth will automatically follow, as love spreads happiness and brings wealth whereever it goes. Thus the rule - spread love to everyone around you, and aceept love for its beauty.

Wealth is but a material gain that can invite greed. Greed is a very bad quality which can possess and corrupt u - zounds! Obsession with wealth can lead to unscrupulous means being adopted to achieve it, and through such means comes the sacrifice of friends, love, and happiness. Why put urself in such a miserable state? erm... bell ring. i update this post later at home around 6pm -_- ciaoz

ok this is the additional update on what happened in the 2nd half of school. After econs lecture i basically slacked around in school, then ate abit of lunch and went to find Ms Lim about Lit. Had quite a nice talk, though not very helpful tips... Next up history remedial was postponed to 1.30! so i went to canteen to walk walk again and saw Mr Trevor. Talked alot with him about history, about SEA. Then it was history remedial... i was SO tired, and my eyes were drying out, not to mention the headache i got from sleeping late last night sighz. Vanessa originally wanted to run, but then she wanted to study instead, so i didnt run too. man i havent been training in weeks! and im that type who deteriorates RAPIDLY if he doesnt train regularly :(

The history lesson was about globalisation and origins of cold war. The titles seem easy, but the questions ms ng posed sent us 'huh-ing'. i was so stone in the remedial... its the headache man... it just numbed me up. Oh ya during econs lecture, though i didnt feel very cold, i got a shock when i looked at my finger nails... they were BLACKISH PURPLE! i didnt feel any numbness or pain... but anyway yea history ended at 4.40 sumthing, and the group engaged in a talk about Catholics with Ms Ng. I slept... didnt really noe what was going on... so dreamy and tired. But i did pop some jokes like when ms ng said 'i hope u all can see the light', i flashed the lanturn light -_- Another memorable event is the singing of the birthday song today, and i was like melting and hopping about in joy. So grateful, thanks 34/04! and oh ya it is children's day! Sweets were given out :) OH YA, there's another person who hates veges other than vanessa! Ms ng!! she said too much veges drives u crazy?! and she hated everything about it... i thought it was meant to be healthy... oh man :S anyway, take care all me friends, i go rest le. bbz

Life behind a mask

After 2 history lessons in LT4, im here at free access room typing this. Me and yijun came up with this topic... which involves most of us in our current lives. Most of us are one person now and a different person at home - thus the issue of living behind a mask.

Every person has his/her unique qualities and characteristics, but only certain characters/qualities can be revealed to the social world in order for acceptance and understanding. Some of us require understanding and acceptance so much that we do stuff to gain attention and admiration. This is, an indirect case of living behind a mask. I think this term means that u become someone that ur not in order to go along with the norm. Its like wearing a mask, where u become a totally, unrecogniseable person, who behaves contrary to his true self. Such behaviour may be due to wanting to cover the bad points and not let it surface. Such doing will only intensify that feeling when he/she reaches home, where the natural characteristics kick in. Some people have a very strong sense of leadership, and want to be control/in the limelight. Perhaps their true self contains internal instability and fickleness, or they are too sensitive and perplexed by the slightest emotions that they feel lost and troubled at the slightest things - thus they need understanding and acceptance. Masks 'mask' identity, and thus sometimes its really hard to tell when a person is not his true self. Some people may remain under that mask forever and u can never tell it... perhaps... he remains under this mask for so long that it becomes his natural self. Thus it is rather dangerous to judge a book by its cover or wad not. Some ppl also behave differently in groups, as they get hyper and want to show off, mostly in the case of gangs, which is why gangfights are so common in modern day life. Group behaviour instigates rebellious feelings and to prove oneself, one will go against his values to follow the norm. Another indirect way of living behind a mask.

A person's true self is really unfathomable. It may be so well hidden, yet sensitive people who are sharp enough can see that hidden personality revealing itself through hidden meaning. A group attention seeker can really be different in real person. People arent what they seem in groups, and some people arent what they seem in real person... confusing :S Ever heard the saying 'ur whole life is a lie' - some people live that kinda life, and they are constantly lying to themselves of their true self. Some people behave rowdily and act eccentric, but in real life they are actually very nice and caring. I have few such friends in Tchs, and yea, u must really noe a person in order to get under that mask. This comes to the point of appreciation of special uniqueness in a person. People should just be what they are and not live a mirrored life. As such, the image will be distorted and they will have split personalities, which is very confounding and can lead to depression/ feeling lost. Such people dont know where to start, dont know where to be left off, dont know where they stand, thus they need constant understanding and acceptance to feel secure. Different people have different likings/wants, and some just like feeling wanted and admired. hmm im sure theres more to life behind a mask, but so far this is all i can think of... til i expound more on it, next post :P

Today ends quite early, as there are twot math lessons after econs. :S sian got history remedial again, but yet i should be quite positive as its gonna be a ball of a time :D anywayz, til the next half of school, tata