2nd half of school: Appreciation

The 2nd half of the school is a replica of the 2nd half of school yesterday... at least... the part about the history remedial is :D Before that i went to have lunch with yijun, youjun, joanne, and qinxue - our big family! we went nyp, and i was playing my power ranger lanturn as usual and ppl were staring lol :P Ate fries, apple pie, and drank coffee mocha which initially was so bitter coz i forgot to 'see' the 'HUGE' tin of sugar right by the counter. I drank the coffee with a straw... yea initially it burn my lips :( Oh ya.. i added loads of sugar, in the end too sweet boohoo :X Blur like sotong :D:P Had alot of laughs at nyp, den finally returned to AJ and played around with Gideon's Doraemon/'i love you' little egg thingy.

History was at some room at blk 2. This time Yuying, Maryam, me, youjun, Gideon, Mark, Jasper and Dwayne were present. What else to say, but hilarious?! Gideon and Dwayne leh! Dwayne is the sort who says a few words which can REALLY tickle those funny bones. It was SO funny man... in fact, too much funny stuff, so much so that i forgot what happened! how to blog... :( I asked alot of questions today! dunno why, but globalisation of cold war was quite fun :D Ms Ng was talking about the depth of knowledge not being there and the difficulties of scoring... and funny jokes were created in the process. The remedial group rox man... i wanna haf it everyday lol. M&Ms were given out today! but i didnt eat any coz i consumed too much sugar liao.

Now for the major part that im gonna write: appreciation. I was utterly SHOCKED and TOUCHED(emotionally, not physically :P:P) by Gideon when he said 'i dun think im coming tmr, so i wish u happy bdae first hsienjun'. i was like !!! u remembered!! Nearly melted on the spot when the other ppl serenaded a birthday song! The feeling of being accepted and liked in a class where unity and lovely friendship are supposed to exist cannot be described, but i will try to describe it now.

U just get that feeling of warmth and security, and at that moment, u feel so secure and trusted, trusted by others as a friend, and cherished in the process. Ur heart just melts at such stuff man.. Birthdays come only once in a year. It is time for friends to show they really care and appreciate the special u which blends into 34/04 to make it a united, harmonious, and fun-loving entity! Everyone is equal and cherished in our class, and such is how friendship should be! It is the thought that counts, and im really touched that such a thought surfaced today. Thats why i always try to make it a point to buy bdae cards for friends' birthdays (my lousy memory has to be constantly refreshed of the date though paiseh :S); though not much, i hope my little thought can make them feel secure that there is a friend in me, as there is in everyone of 34/04. Such a special occassion where u enter the world crying can actually end up in u smiling when it is celebrated :D i dunno how to further describe this man... but one thing is for sure: THANK YOU 34/04! I REALLY cherish our friendship though im not that bold/open to say it out in person coz i shy haha, but its true, i REALLY cherish such small little things and appreciate it alot. I hope my actions can show my appreciation.. :) Thanks to those who warmed my heart today, and thanks to everyone haha. Thats how happiness and friendly love is radiated, and thats how it makes a person, as well as every other person around you, happy! Happy for a common cause, happy because its a time where someone, a part of this class, is supposed to be happy as well... i noe this sounds abit mushy... but yea this is what i am :D Everyone jia you k, gd luckz. btw if you guys dunno me bdae, i came into this world on 2 oct 1987 lol

Today really made my day... i didnt even mind walking in the rain with maryam even though i had an umbrella. If a friend walks in the rain, as a friend, it is only right to walk thru it together(tong2 gan1 gong4 ku3 - means share thick and thin together)(the umbrella was too small for 2 ppl :S). so yea.. talked abit about fixing pc and spyware, and she left to take her bus. Yea... till tmr brings new stuff and laughs, and new toys/lanturns, and not to mention, *hint hints*, ill cya all ard! Take care! Love this class man. rock on-

First half of school

Started with me in the Ava room in the staff room when there was no assembly... sighz. Seems like the school really protects the students' welfare - lightning strikes in such an open AJ square wouldnt be uncommon... esp if there are no trees around. But i seriously didnt see anything wrong with today morning's weather except for the sky being a teeny bit less blue than usual, which is always the case in mornings -_- Anyways it did drizzle slightly later on... but yea.

I brought my power ranger lanturn! And Gideon brought the cute egg-shaped purple thingy with a face on it, from Burger King, which made a cute sound: 'i love you, i love you!' on contact. So cute larz... oh man. Slacked at LT5 with yijun and youjun and we talked lame stuff including study. Was playing ard with the visualizer when Ms Ng came in lol. Lessons started on Globalisation of the Cold War and as usual, it was quite beneficial and good. Ms Ng is really a good teacher :)

Next up is GP at room 226. I was playing the lanturn song all the way lol. Too bad aiping didnt bring the dragon lanturn today if not can fight already! :P Today is the last GP lesson due to promos... and we got to see Ms Low for the last time. Boy was the class relieved; it was heaven compared to Ms Usha or worse, Ms Kheng... not that i have anything against them but they are less-liked compared to Ms Low. Well lessons were fun, and we did some analysis of AQ, with the terms 'SPERM', 'TIE', and 'PEE' being mentioned. Sexual connotations as usual XD too bad shawn wasnt there to rub the board! LOL anyway as a farewell gift, we played songs on the lanturn and serenaded 'i love you, i love you!' It was abit sad... but yet the class made it so happy and joyous, and we had many funny jokes from Gideon as well. I must really state that it was LOVELY and MOST ENJOYABLE having Ms Low's lessons, as with Ms Ng. Both are such helpful, kind, and caring teachers! Esp Ms Low who doesnt scold at all and is so nice and laughable. Both teachers really mix well with the class and we have a ball of a time as if we're friends. Yep, will really miss them :( Having break now, left the power ranger in the council room with Dwayne. Dino! dun hurt me ranger! wahahaha kidding :P

Oh ya Ee ling Brought Starbursts, very nice of her to distribute to everyone. They rock, with that sour taste to perk u up. Hmm... maybe i should buy a packet of 'kopiko' and share it too... heh. Sharing and caring is what friends do! Then during the GP lesson, we discussed about teachers again. There just wasnt the appeal for Ms Kheng or Ms Usha... they just didnt have that friendly/experienced touch i guess, not insulting their profession or anything, its just that some teachers' teaching style and interaction are different, and more likeable :) We played around with puns like 'lowest of the LOW' :D Ms Low said she was getting demoted or something, and we joked about 'how can anyone be lower than us?' Gideon said 'U'll see me in J1' lol... think Ms Low is a great teacher. Maybe she juz humble or shy haha, but she shd haf confidence in her teaching when everyone likes it so much :) rock on- break gonna end in 4 minutes. Lets see what the rest of the day brings and ill blog it down ba... oh ya history remedial afterwards on globalisation of CW... i really hope i can make it. sighz. little improvement now is not enough... i need to make MAJOR improvement... which is... daunting :P kk everyone gd luck and jia you

*hint hint*

*sky was absent as he injured himself while playing basketball
Continuing from where i left off, me, jieyi, gayle, gideon, mark and yijun went for econs remedial with Ms Winnie Tan outside the staff room. It was an enlightening lesson, as i learnt a few things through my sleep. I was so tired that i had double-vision... arghz. Gonna become a panda after promos man, my eyes now are puffed up already.

The history remedial was fun as usual, esp with Gideon around this time!! This time Yuying, Gayle and Shawn sat in but yijun and youjun werent there. We discussed the social aspect of SEA, and did three questions only. Gideon is super funny! I dunno but his actions/words are SO funny waha. He kept teasing Ms Ng by playing that chinese new year song from the 'thingy' that was detached from poor old 'dory'. The lightbulb flashing about made it look like a firefly :D Ms Ng even had to close the door and hide behind it with a dustpan ready to ka-pow Gideon wahhahaha.

Ms Ng brought Tolberone chocolate today! yum yum!! ate two of them. During the lesson Gideon was funny with his words too man, he just knows how to play around with the words to make them sound funny. Like he answers the question by questioning the question in return lol, something like that. As usual i was just looking ard and slacking... felt so sluggish.. maybe its the lack of exercise these days. It was quite a fun/intuitive lesson, and i learnt some things. Ms Ng as usual was full of giggles. Oh ya and there was a few sexual connotations mentioned..haha thats what u get when gideon and jasper are there :D:D funny man... got one about 'men in uniform'... and i was like: im from ncc! -_- Shawn was there too oh ya, and he was funny too, with his 'i RUB(the board) so many times liao' lol. Our class ar... can interpret sexual connotations so well... lol... the slightest hint and it can develop into something else :D lovely class - rock on.

Remedial ended at 5.30 and took the mrt home with shawn. Forced him to take the same train with me which ended at yishun; he lives in sembawang :P He was abit sad about not being able to get his $500+ ipod today, especially when he wasted a trip out to buy the windows 2000 software from ang mo kio. He commented about vitamin pills and about their consumption. He is currently sick with fever due to walking in the rain so, i advised him to take some vitamins. Anyway, i was abit eager to rush home, to try out the new softwares i downloaded from the internet. Im a pirate man... ALL my games and software are ALL downloaded, and all are full versions... the net can be such a reliable tool yea :D Anyway i installed a few antiviruses, but still sticked to norton 2005 in the end... boy i sometimes admire those hackers. Norton Antivirus 2005 was like released dunno how long ago only... and they cracked it so fast.. omg. Heh... leads me to think about the issue on piracy... oh well... haha and the phrase *hint hint* suddenly became quite popular :P maybe coz of pre-promo stress? Its driving ppl crazy :D After sch met denise Eeling and vanessa at the study area outside LT1... so super hardworking man..well wish them all the best. And im bringing my power rangers lanturn tomorrow k! it has a new new year song! haha must bring the dragon lanturn ok, so we can fight! :P

Exhaustion

Sian... today nothing really special happened, and you all must be wondering why am i typing such a short entry, and why is there only ONE entry :P Too tired man... maybe after promos or something. Ok today started out with me going for AVA duty but in the end having no duty coz there was no assembly. We wasted time in the parade square playing with lanturns... and there was super cute 'DORY' lanturn... too bad georgia didnt come today else there would be dory and nemo :D

Yep then went to room 223 for GP, and we discussed AQ questions. Mark was so funny when he buttoned his collar up, and rolled his socks over his pulled up pants... It looked like a farmer without a hat :D Lots of laughs... and some merry songs from Dory the fish lanturn... Next up was Econs lecture which was boring also. Econs tutorial discussed something about Data response questions - overall situation, and refinement... those are the steps to passing ur AQ! yea right... if thats so how come i always get single digit :(

Ok next was history lecture at LT5... and i actually spoke some stuff on the topic... Almost everyone didnt do their tutorials, so Ms Ng gave us answers. I think Ms Ng should give us answers most of the time, as it benefits us more. I mean, if we didnt do our tutorials and hurriedly copied them, we would not be learning anything. And moreover work done by us will not be the most accurate, thus i think time would be saved if we just discussed with the answers straightaway. Next was Lit lecture at the same place, with Ms Kheng droning on about The Rime of the Ancient Mariner.

Then was econs remedial and lunch, during which i carried that cute dory around all the time and occassionally turned on the sound. Ppl were staring i guess, but i didnt really care coz its so cute :D So next up is history remedial... boring... gonna fall asleep man. Im seeing double vision! everyday go home so late, how to study... sighz. Saw my jie jie today haha. talked about the dory fish and some other stuff. yep, times up, go for history remedial liao. Tmr is a brand new day!

Touching... :'(

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl.....This ROMANTIC GUY folded 1000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl... Although, at time he was just a small fry in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were happy together...Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she couldn't visualize any future for both of them, so they went their own ways there and then...Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regains his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind, just to make something out of him.Finally with all these hardwork and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company! You never fail until you stop trying.One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain, walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella,they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his girl's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan.He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it!Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and he got out of his car and followed... and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from the tombstone and he saw his paper cranes beside her...Her parents saw him. He asks them why had this happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all... She was ill with cancer... She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle!... therefore she had chosen to leave him.Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they have... she had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again... he can take some of those back with him...Once you have loved, you will always love... For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever...The guy just wept.....The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them... hope you would understand...Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning, losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you

School was amusing today!!

Ok firstly my previous blog about cloning - i had to go through arduous means to get it published, at a place none other than AJC free access room. *PS: THE COMS SUCK
I was Happily typing out my essay... and i completed it with 5 seconds to spare... WHEN I SUDDENLY REALISED THERE WAS NO PUBLISH BUTTON... i PANICKED! I copied the whole text and tried refreshing... but to no avail. The irritating bell only added to my anxiety as i prayed to the internet-connection god -_- Hotmail would be even slower... so i decided to save it in notepad and return during CLAO break. OH the FRUSTRATION! I was squealing in the room man... bleah.. Anyway i did manage to get it published with a stroke of luck during CLAO break, and that took the whole break... sian, could have posted another entry.

School was so tiring today! First was GP where Ms Lee gave us gp analysis thing to do. It was rather interesting so i didnt fall asleep, and completed the whole paper, for the first time!! BUT NO NEED TO HAND IN... ! waste time! :( Ok next up was Lit, where we discussed the 'Channel Firing' Poem... quite an interesting poem involving 'a dead body's perception of the poem', and a satirical touch to the poem where the 'dead body sat up and talked' -_- The poem was basically about war-like instincts of man etc... yea i slept abit and spoke abit, fully utilised time ok! :P

Slacked during the breaks and slept in LT1, then ate lunch together with youjun, yijun, jasper, mark and some others who left earlier. Oh ya when i went to photocopy some history notes in the bookshop, i saw ranvir, and took a very close/long look at him. He's not bad looking, and quite cute also lol. But Georgia walked in, and they both were like shocked. The reason behind it... i shall not say haha, not like i noe liddat :D yea.. Georgia and Eeling were there to buy energizer batteries.

During Civics today we had a discussion about promos! And how our expected grades would be. We were supposed to write down on paper what our wanted grades were. I amazingly wrote some Cs, and Econs an E. Sigh... i am so optimistic. Gideon was like laughing away, and his laughter is so funny! makes u wanna laugh also..laughter really is contagious :D Then the lesson ended with a SUPER FUNNY ACT with Gideon, Mark, AND GEORGIA'S NEMO LANTURN! It was the highlight of the day man! SO CUTE WITH BIG ROUND INNOCENT EYES... such that u could stare into them the whole day! And the play by Gideon and Mark was about the fish knocking into a rock and dying... and when the light+sound of the lanturn blended into the play... it sent the PCCG room rocking with laughter. Next we saw a dead lizard outside room 1111 in a 'mouth-gaping' pose... it was almost like it froze to death while probably preparing to eat something... or maybe it was shocked to death.. Gideon wanted to take picture, as u could see into the lizard's mouth. I thought of poem that started with 'lizard lizard on the wall... who's the biggest mouth of them all?' -__- ok thats lame.

Then it was the dreaded long wait before history remedial at 2! And boy... was history remedial amusing. Other than the usual routine of walking round the school to find an air-con empty classroom, which took us from staff room to blk 4 to LT5 to room 12something, we finally settled down and started staring at each other... Oh yea before that i polished all my fingernails... SO COOL!! they SHINE IN SUNLIGHT! OMG! Ms Ng was going gaga over our lame jokes and little response. haha typical when u get me, mark and jasper combi. Yijun and youjun were there too, but couldnt help... so yea :D I was very slack leh... kept sleeping...Oh ya Ee ling and Maryam joined us abit later, and Ee Ling gave out apple mentos - thanks! :) Ms Ng also gave us free chocolates, and each of us ate a few. They were delicious yum yum. More jokes on the history bet.. sighz. i slept at 3am last night with the sustainence of warm coffee :S

Then toward the end of the history remedial... while attempting to write something on the whiteboard... i saw this malicious huge male mosquito(or female? cant be female..its outrageously big) It was staring menacingly at me and hovering about... it wasnt exactly the fast type of mosquito, coz it was so big. So i traced it to the side of the class... and my hopes soared when it flew low to the ground! I took aim and kicked at it!! I noe its abit useless to do so, coz the wind will push it away... but hey its so big! surely the tip of my shoe will at least stun it.. :P anyway it DID get stunned... and was dizzy... a second blow and it was down on the floor, but not dead! den i stomped on it... :P And a resounding 'yes i killed a mosquito!' sent the group bursting out in laughter, esp yijun :P yea... guess it was how everyone was doing the history question while i was killing a mosquito that was so funny.. :S :D anywayz, it ended at 5.30 due to lack of knowledge again, and ms ng was lamenting at the tediousness of it all. Went home, and said bye to a few friends includnig denise and maryam. Denise was still studying in school... so hardworking. Everyone jia you k! (abit ironic coz im still blogging at home and not studying :P) :P So till tomorrow brings new stuff, this entry ends here. Enjoy :D

Cloning: Immortality?

Had gp lesson this morning... did a passage analysis on the 'Hwa Chong' Paper, which talked about cloning. A rather intesresting subject to talk about. How fun would it be, if one could live forever, without fear of death or disease. If the ability of thoughts could be copied as well, then the person would be a living breathing split-second image of himself. Hmmm heheh, thought could create infinite possibilities, but would also result in increased crime rates as people could duplicate their positions.
The fact about saving lives from the wrath of infertility or death/disease makes cloning a very useful alternative. Many people in this world die due to mishaps, and most of them die without a cause. As we arent one of them, its near impossible to feel for what their family members might feel for the loss of their loved ones. Life is so fragile... no matter how strong a person is, he is still fully susceptible to death/disease, and accidents. Countries where terrorist attacks take place, in Afghanistan for example, or Iraq, people die by numerous numbers EVERYDAY due to bombings and stuff... its so cruel to take a life... such terrorists have no heart/no brain. They advocate that they will go to heaven if they sacrifice themselves in a kamikaze... what lame logic -_- There are limitations to what medical advancements can do, thus cloning could be a major life-saver in the near future, aside from the cost it will incur. Cloning includes organ cloning, which could be useful for people in need for transplant for example.
However, some people find it morally repugnant to create a living breathing replica of urself, with exactly the same thoughts - this would be a blow to human dignity, as we are reduced to merely copies of ourselves, and are given name tags as 'donors'. Some view it as inhumane to bring a life to this world, with exactly the same thoughts as the original... this is somewhat taking 'creation out of God's hands'. And with cloning comes many accidents during the experimental procedures, and it involves many animal lives and implications later. Thus it will be very dangerous to experiment on humans, as once the life is created, if it goes out of hand, the life cannot be terminated, and the abomination has to live in suffering. Sighz..
The issue about immortality is an attractive alternative to some. Being immortal could present us with the opportunity of a lifetime to fulfil our dreams/wishes, and we could enjoy ourselves forever in the state of youth we are in. We could also attempt things that we could never dare to try in our lives due to life dangers. People would have the freedom to do what they want... oh man break ending in 5 seconds. Gotta go, till next time!

Beating about the bush

For those reading this post, there are two others i made today. Haha paiseh, but there are so many issues/values in life that are worth writing down. So next time when i look at this blog, feelings will flood back again :)

I realised that i have a habit of beating about the bush when it comes to giving direct answers to friends. Mostly when it is a 'yes/no' question, i will try to go the 'indirect' way, and beat about the bush... coz im not the type to say 'no' directly, coz i think its rather crude/rude, and that im not sparing a thought for others' feelings. But some friends told me that if i kept thinking and procrastinating and not giving a definite answer, that would get on others' nerves as well.. :S I really dun wanna anger anyone or dissatisfy anyone... sometimes we all do things that agitate people unintentionally, so if i ever did anything that upset anyone here's my apologies.

About the 'yes/no' questions, i guess its also because i weigh both sides of the situation too much, and decide between the pros and cons. Its like when Brendan asked me to go to his church event thingy, i really wanted to go, yet i had to put time aside to study, yet i knew that if i told him a direct 'no' it would hurt his feelings... so i procrastinated on phone and tried to explain things out.. but yea, in the end i told him 'i really cannot make it... sorry...' instead of saying 'no'... i juz cant seem to say that word :S That also makes me a very easily persuaded person... if u say 'please' enuff times, i cant bear to say 'no', and will most probably agree to wadever u want me to do unless its abit outrageous :S Maybe its also on the account that friends are asking, so i would want to please them. yea.. sometimes i support friends more than myself... but i hope thats a good thing.. :) For those ppl who have less patience out there, sorry! sometimes i abit slow de! and my hearing ar... sometimes got problem wan, can hear wrong things, or cannot hear things from far at all. :X maybe its coz i dream too much... today sure was a dreamy dreamy day..

Sighz... back to chatting on msn... boy i cant live without msn man... the virtual community/chat world rox... lets me convey feelings so easily, without having to show facial expressions and yet being able to laugh it out or leave the intended impression/memory... though it may be better to hold one-to-one conversations, in a world where friends make up our lives, sometimes such opportunities for private talks are very rare, thus we rely on chatting over the net to noe each other more. But dont anyhow chat with ppl u dont noe ar... lol this world also alot of dangerous bad peeps, and sometimes people you dont know might juz add you :S But anyhow, take carez all my friends of 34/04, tchs, and any other friend that noes me out there.. till next post, ciaoz :)

School sux...

I noe how much i like to put a title then talk about things that arent really related to the title... but im not really good at giving short sweet titles so... haha bear with me! Ok after the previous post i made... it was basically more stoning in Lit lesson, with Ms Lim talking about contrasts between good and evil, love and hate etc, and some other cheemilogy. I was reading history notes... sort of..and i managed to read 1 paragraph! cool huh.. -_- After that is math break, which i went to hand up the money for the facilitator shirt thingy, then went to LT5 only to prance about with yijun and give uniform group commands. Ms Ng was angry with me for copying tutorials.. and i have to stay back everyday at 2pm for this week, to study!! OH MAN...

After the lesson i went to eat with sky... and we talked about study techniques and some class politics about interaction. Apparently some ppl who were angry with him previously have totally forgiven him already, and he apparently has taken on abit of character change as well, for the better. I feel happy for him :) yea then it was back to LT5, where i stoned somemore while denise did some Ballet dance. Oh ya talking about that Georgia was interested to know my 'man3 jiang1 hong2' dance, but i forgot almost all of the stances liao... still remember in sec3 we performed it for the NYGH girls to see... so many stances man. Anyway georgia got scolded by Ms Ng for trying to do one of the stances ...while wearing a skirt... so yea.

The remedial with Ms Ng involved a bet, which stated that if mark, jasper and me were to score very high for history, we would get 60 bucks in all, and there was some funny debate about how much we should get and what punishment we would receive if we failed. IF we failed, we would have to do every single history essay... oh MAN! We discussed a few questions and were progressing RELATIVELY fast... so, it ended at 5pm. -__- SO TIRED! Haiz... we didnt have an easy time solving Ms ng's questions, was rather hard, on us, coz we had little knowledge :P Anyway, after it me and sky went to eat ice cream at yio chu kang mrt station. Thats me day man... boring, din even talk much at all. School sux.. no.. study sux..

Pictures paint a thousand words

This morning while i was sitting dreamiliy in my shuttle bus, enjoying the cool air con... i heard the news over the radio: pictures paint a thousand words, but a song can paint more than that... Words of a meaningful song transport you to another world where the rush of emotions and feelings are just short of welling up in your eyes. The tune of a song can represent ur current feeling, and it can give u a temporary escape for ur sorrows, by bringing out scenes which are so related with ur current situation, that you just cant help but drown ur emotion into the song. Korean love songs are just so sweet... and at the right moment can result in the flood of emotion out of ur eyes.

A picture paints a thousand words... sometimes just by looking at a picture, reminiscence of fond childhood memories can surface. Pictures of friends can really warm your heart with a feeling that 'ahh ive made such a wonderful friend in my life, who has affected me a great deal and touched my heart..' Photos for remembrance can capture that very instant when the joy of a person beams out at you, and once captured, that smile can live on forever, unchanged by time; even as we grow older, its as if we're still that same happy person in the photo. Good times dont last, thats why they're meant to be captured on photo... class photos can really bring back fond memories. Though the photo just shows the many different faces, but immediately a flashback of sccenarios will occur where we re-live fun times spent with such good friends. When people are no longer around in this world... when our parents eventually leave us... photos will act as a form of remembrance, and an artificial presence of that person we love so dearly...

Its a gloomy monday today, and im really tired... Still holding the 3 schools of thought notes... lol from last night till now... and i cant concentrate in school especially, thus i hope i can read like one page before school ends. I feel puffed up... must be the stuff i ate yesterday... well, and i dont really feel like talking much, one thing coz im tired, the other is because of my inherent nature of not talking much in groups... i dunno why, but i just feel nervous about expressing my opinion in a group. I find it much easier to write opinions down or type it out, and even easier when there's a one-to-one conversation. Yea... so its not that im being dao(if ever anyone thought that), or speak very little, its juz my character, and dreamy mood.

Blogging at the free access room with no lights, and minimal aircon.. so hot!! i dunno what the rest of the day will bring, but since school ends at 1 everyday now... its a relief at least... going to be end of first break at 10am... sian... off i go, cyaz.

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL

woohoo! after going out at 6.30 to tighten braces and washup me mouth, a dismal event occured: mooncake festival at my condo(what was the teeth washing for man).... gosh the food... im sure i would have put on weight that very night :S There was curry puffs galore, settled in a sea of fishcakes swimming about amongst fences of otah. Little gift packages including pockey, jelly, a pencil -_-, eraser?! and some other lame stuff, were given out. Oh ya there was this inflatable lanturn, in the shapes of POWER RANGERS, AND PIKACHU -_______-. INFLATABLE... my dad was puffing at it till he got a headache! And my sis tried to help by giving him a 'pump' which was smaller than the size of a hamster -_-

We got two such packages... my parents got them that is... and those were supposedly for children, so... WAHAHHA my parents ar :S they tabao food home for me!! But the mooncake was ee-yuck, no rich taste at all... or maybe my mouth was juz full of the taste of fishcakes.. It was rather hard to bite into the hardened curry puff, and i got a shock at the ingredients. At first glance it really looked like shit. A black paste with strands of supposed veges sticking out of the paste... and thats all, the crust was rather empty :S the fishcakes were the nice part.. mm so huge and juicy - i ate five!! Not to mention two curry puffs and one and a half mooncakes, all for free! muaahah -_- :P

The dismal part is my mom, after me tightening those braces, BOUGHT QUAY(sticky cake-_-) FROM BENGAWANG SOLO, so, in addition to those delicacies, i still had to eat '9 layer cake', and two so-called-by-mom, 'mountains', which are actually pyramidal blue glutinous rice with brown coconut toppings... bleh wanna vomit now... there goes my so called diet... and recently due to promos and freaking out, i havent been trainin! oh man... i cant stand not training... lets go run someone!!! Im getting stiff and weak... and my stamina!! ive built up my physical for so long, just to let it be tarnished by mooncakes! no way! lol im being lame -_-

Ive got nothing to do right now, so i thought id write something funny to amuse myself, and hopefully others reading it :D While typing the history notes 'the 3 schools of thought' is lying peacefully on my lap. I wonder when am i gonna touch it... :D My mom keeps saying i need to put on abit more weight, coz i was 57kg previously... and for height 170 thats not very neat... so im 58/59 now, stop stuffing me with food already! lol..

Oh ya must do facial later...recently adopted this habit with my sis. she hor, spend thousands on her face... siaoz. but its quite fun actually... first u start off with a rough substance that u rub on ur face till it looks like a ripe tomato, then u wash with normal face soap. Next comes the transformation into a scardy cat/ghost. I spread the mask gel evenly on my face, then wait for it to dry, and the tightness on me face is really cool as i stand in front of the aircon and stone for few minutes. I still recall the other time when i left my mouth open while putting on the mask, and when it hardened, i couldnt close it, for fear of the rumoured wrinkles that might appear, and i was like a slurping monster trying to prevent saliva from dripping out lolol. Im a metrosexual, and i like to dress in fashionable clothes (though constant black isnt really what u call fashionable...) but yea... hmm its 10.09 now... ill go do facial at 10.30, then it'll all be over at 11pm, which is when ill attempt to study. Note the word ATTEMPT, which means TRY, no guarantees :D im still wearing my contacts, so i might fall asleep trying to study :P tata for now

SMOKING SUX!!!!!

Ever felt like caving someone's face in when they stand indignantly in front of you and puff those fumes of death right into ur face? The hot, acrid smell of smoke that stings and burns ur lungs, and makes you wanna puke, right into the face of that 'attacker'. urghz..i feel sick when i see those deadly streaks of gas emanating from that thing little white-and-brown stick, often held between the first two fingers, and put between the lips: A CIGARETTE!!

Drugs SUCK, they alter the natural functioning of your body, and make it such that you cannot live without daily abuse of such drugs. Why make ur body dependent on something that harms u in everyway? Not only does it waste money, it totally sucks ur life away from you. Yes people say it relieves stress, but thats because they just cant find other ways of relieving stress, or cant face up to reality. Smoking DOES NOT RELIEVE STRESS, unless ur talking about reliving the stress of having to live on this world for so long. Also, those people have nothing better to do, so they smoke! its not about relieving stress or anything. AND NO ITS NOT A COOL THING TO DO! Its NOT COOL to take ur life away, and EVEN MORE NOT COOL to affect those innocent bystanders who take in ur stupid smoke, after it has passed thru ur lungs...eeew gross... Cant such people be more considerate, if not for themselves, for others, who dont wanna be passive smokers? Its like in the morning and the bus interchange, u see loads of SCHOOL children, or teenagers, SMOKING AT THE QUEUEING VENUE, and the worse part, they just wont leave. I would resort to covering my nose with a tissue... but i still can smell the smoke... and it freaks me out... the smoke also stains ur clothes etc and makes you smell of it... that rotting garbage smell... dunno how ppl can stand taking ash and soot into their bodies... no brains. No insult to ppl whose parents smoke, but this is how i generally feel, and i would STRONGLY discourage or stop any of my friends who start smoking. YES SIREE. More than often, people view people who smoke with contempt, rather than admiration. Its not a 'wa u so young smoke liao, so cool!' sorta thing, its more like 'you so young already want to die...cheh'

Now on to the even worse parts... GIRLS THAT SMOKE... OMG! Since when has this nice world turned into a drug-abused place?! in orchard road, i think one day of walking around there can take away lengths of ur life -_-, though not to such an extent lar.. but i really think smoking should be banned, one step at a time. I really dunno why girls would wanna smoke, maybe to keep up that ah lian style... yea. but its lucky that only a minority of girls smoke... but the numbers are on the rise man... sighz. Smoking is bad for health, creates many problems including heart attack, strokes, bad breath, yellow teeth, death, yellow finger nails, ADDICTION, stupidity(this one is the reason they smoke), and many more. Banning of cigarettes would probably invite unwanted actions like smuggling etc, but it has to be done somehow if Singapore wants to live long and prosper -_- I know im really casting a bad light on smokers, but it really isnt the right thing to do, and i really dont like them. I think people of our age should be more mature than to take drugs as an alternative to stress or to forget troubles.. its just not worth it... the addiction is hard to get rid of.

Sometimes, we are influenced by friends to try it... 'just one puff, try try only lar', but the answer should be a loud and strict 'NO'. One puff can get you hooked. What kinda friend would wanna harm you! ud be better off without him/her, seriously, and this is coming from a person who cherishes friendship. Not say totally dun friend him/her la, juz keep a distance if he/she asks u to take drugs, this way friends can still be kept. Its not good to mix with bad company, thus guys/girls, choose friends well. Bad company can influence you to be someone that ur not. In this case, i refer bad company to those who take drugs, or are of abusive/violent character, other than that, minor character flaws are still nothing much, and friendship stil will be cherished. Lol talking about smoking... isnt that wad we do in 34/04? :P but for those reading this, dun get it wrong, smoking in this case means 'bluffing our way through' XD

Another issue, gang fights etc... i think its totally pointless lar.. Act seh in a group... act big, den commit crime already run off like mice, in the end get caught, get hanged... still the same. haiyo... i speaking singlish now to emphasize the commonality of such an issue, which has yet to be resolved. People just cant think sometimes, not most of us, but for that minority who believe that face and pride is all that matters. Sometimes a single dare like 'u scared ar, chicken den say lar' will instigate us to reply 'no lar, die den die lar'... such stupid gang behaviour....*faints*. Members in a gang are merely FIGUREHEADS, being controlled, having no say or life, following their leader, who supposedly runs away during a gang fight -_- i believe that all this rowdy group behaviour will often invite trouble too. But in case any trouble occurs, we should be the ones to apologise first. This is not about being scardy cat, first its about being polite, 2nd its about being smart. If they have a gang, you're gonna die, no matter how strong you are, so even if its not ur fault, apologise. Compromise and accomodate, like what the siamese kings did :P It takes two hands to clap, but if u let them clap on their own, they will look like lamers and will not bother you :P Once again, no offence to anyone who smokes, or dies in gang fights. Peace. XD

On another hand... if only i had sun wukong's super powers, or im battousai kenshin with a katana in my hands and no respect for the current non-existent law, i would ka-pow them! and show them a piece of my mind! haha but thats not good, i would be just like them. so back to reality, im juz a guai ol' me :P

Anyways, i guessed i talked enough about negative behaviour... till next time, no drugs for anyone!!!!!

Things to ponder about education

MOE states something like "Moulding students into future leaders!" But i thought of something: a mould consists of putting the liquid into a FIXED container of FIXED shape, which then hardens into a RIGID object. Heh, wouldnt that represent rigidity and inflexibility of systems? :P I think the current system of education now is very stereotype and routine-based... i cant stand it. Perhaps it could be more intuitive and creative, with students specialising in what they really like (the govt has been emphasizing this, but never really been implemented...), and not forgetting the part about interaction. The system should not be of deadened learning and studying in a box with four walls, a projector, and a whiteboard -_-" This would provide room for boredom/lethargy to breed, and through that laziness and lack of enthusiasm. How i wish for learning to take on a whole new meaning - interactive learning! Where students come to school eager to learn! Not the current scenario where ppl come early to school, plonk themselves in a chair in the reading room and fall asleep... drained of inclination to move or think.... such is the lack of interest and motivation we encounter, such is the exhaustion we experience from the 'strenuous' education system. It should all be about flexibility, where students are given choice of freedom to learn, and through what methods. Virtual learning could take on a whole new perspective to learning, or perhaps learning could be carried out in the form of activities that will really leave an impression on us, and make us remember, compared to most of the boring lessons in which we doze off or stone in.

Of course, this is the negative side of such an education. The positive side is, its all about urself! If there's a will, there's a way! You can do it! Self-discipline and time-management will help! yes it does! -___- I guess we must all face a fact: study sux! If only school was just about mixing ard and making new friends. IF ONLY THEY ABOLISHED THE RETAINING STUFF. i mean... why not let us bear the consequences of failing a'levels , rather than wasting our 1 year away. Most of us would pia at the last minute wan wad.. haiz

There are some ppl who love study... i dont know why but their whole life is based upon study. Maybe these people dont know the other joys of life... or maybe they are so commited and disciplined as to sit at a table for the whole day and end up being an uncle with huge specs. No discrimination or wadeva here, juz what i feel, in a lame way :D Probably these people have a strong sense in themselves to surpass their limits, to really test their mental sinews and cherish the fruits of their labour. Some people get such self-satisfaction when their results show the fruits of their labour, and when they score above the rest, thus they set themselves into achieving this. Some study hard because of the wanting to get good jobs... But i dont think good jobs is the end-all and be-all of everything... there are many instances, though a minority, where uneducated ppl with special talents make it big... Kitaro with no education, and no music background, had musical sense and became a star... ordinary construction workers can become singers... thus i believe partly in fate and our destiny, which can also be controlled by our daily actions. Due to impulse and logic, we just might choose the right path... nothing can be predicted right now, so wishful dreaming probably isnt the right thing to do ... so... since the current system of education is such, we have to abide by such RESTRICTIONS, and try to adapt to it lor... sigh, boring.

Some people may argue that you control your own fate, but that isnt entirely true, as that guy above, does some planning too. So with all due respect, God help us! anywayz, our destiny has been written, but can be changed by the things we do. At this current maturing stage, we encounter many confounding problems and are often left feeling lost, stranded, floundering in that sea of emotion and doubts.. unable to rise above the waters to breathe in the very air that sustains ur existence. That air... consists of friends, love, and drive! The drive to accomplish things in life, to constantly be on the move to surpass urself! Thats what life is about... *this is getting contradictory but oh well..just writing my flow of thoughts down* If not life would be dull monotony at home, living in solitude, in poverty. Why not leave this world in fame, or to a smaller extent, leave this world happy that u've accomplished something?

However, fame and glory doesnt naturally mean a happy life... many actors/singers suffer from depression, as they are in a constant state of trying to be appealing to the audience, and some may experience self-doubt or self-denial, thus they resort to taking drugs and affecting their health. The pressures of high-standard lives are crushing. An example, michael jackson is the king of pop.. but look what has happened to him now... He cant accept himself for who he is... Thus i think that as long as we're contented for what we are, accept others around us, take things as they come easily and open-heartedly, we can all survive in this complex world. Till next time, ill sign off here.

Hi-Bye friends: A tribute to some :)

Our whole life is a revolving door of buddies and friends that we spend time with, cherish, and brave the tough times together. Some friends may be closer to you than others, coz such friends base the relation upon trust, freedom, and the ability to connect spiritually and intellectually. Trust, something that friends should have, trust in thought and action, where friends keep loyal and never cheat/lie. Trust can create a conducive environment for friends to confide in one another and really get to know each others' character.

Freedom is what friends need too, freedom of thought, speech and action. It wouldnt be nice if a friend had to keep accomodating/restraining his/her actions just to fit the likings/disilkes of another friend, that would be a strained and unnatural friendship. That would be a mirror image of urself. I believe that friends are about being urself, and liking that special unique person for who he is, and admiring his/her qualities. The ability to connect spiritually and intellectually can really provide a source of communication or interest, which can develop into further friendship levels. Friends should also not be chosen by likings/dislikings, or by looks. We should never judge a book by its cover, as what's underneath may really unravel into a lovely story.

Thus with this basic definition of friends, im faced with a scenario of hi-bye friends. It sometimes is abit saddening to see that happening, as friends should be more than just two words. Probably its the fact that we have too many friends to really get to know and chat well with each and everyone of them, but ... friends reduced to two words? hmm... It could be blamed on the fact that when friends are seen with other friends, we shy away and are embarrassed of talking to them for long or really expressing our thoughts when in a group, or afraid that we might embarrass them unknowingly and strain the relation. Or it could be that we're in a rush and juz pass a sweeping 'hi' and 'bye' just for acknowledgement. Hmm... nothing beats the friends u make in a class yea... :) Sometimes that feeling of: ahh i see a friend! i wanna go up to talk to him/her... but after initial 'hellos', the convo ends up stale with them having to go somewhere else or something...

sometimes we really get that urge to strike a conversation, but back down as we dont know what their reaction may be...or shy away in fear of embarrassing ourselves with rejection. This is especially true for relationships. But nevertheless, a nice warm smile and a super-cute 'heylo!' is still needed to give that little warm welcome msg of appreciation in others hearts, and it can really put a returning smile on their face and brighten their day. A pat on their shoulder would bolster encouragement and give them more faith that friends are by their side ready to brave thick and thin together :)

Okay now this paragraph will be dedicated to our beloved ex-member of 34/04, ERIC! With you in the class, the day would never be boring, as you always had never-ending excitnig and interesting jokes to tell. You always seemed so lively and active, and not to mention your cheeky wide-smile which would always induce laughter. You could just socialise so well, and i guess we understood each other rather well too, thus you are really one of my goodest friends! You would try to reason ur way and through that ur actions sometimes abit blur loL! very funny... you also have a strong sense of yi4 qi4, and you're loyal to ur friends, willing to help them in what ways you can. But you, like me, can be indecisive too! so... yea our characters match abit. Well, here's a tribute to two others who have left our class, cindy and hwee xian, the cute lovely duo - hao3 jie3 mei4, how are u doing? The class misses u too!! and not to mention kay yin and yi ting, who was here in the beginning of the year but left very soon. And another 'cheers' to all my goodie best friends out there in AJC, and in 34/04, Yijun, sky... and all my TCHS friends, you rock! you're everything i can fall back on, rock on!

A special request by eric: to commerate the stoner's club!! Consisting of me, sky, eric, yijun, and youjun, our brothers! Here's a tribute to all the stoning times we've spent together stoning in stonable lessons, and laughing at the durability of our stonability. I remember earlier in the year, i was like super stone, could just sit through the whole lesson and stare into blank air. :D We are all a bunch of dreamy dreamers, with flighty thoughts high up in the clouds, and deep passion lol... abit qua1 zhang1? :P But yea, we enjoyed ourselves together and went out often too, a true cliche, ill never forget ya guys! keep in contact, love ya'll!!!

Oh ya and there's one person id like to say hello too, we lost contact for a long time, and that guy is desmond hong. Known him for like god noes how long, a real nice guy when u really know him. In primary sch we had so much fun together, you were so active and cheerful and fun to play with... really enjoyed those times we joked and played with each other, got into troubles together, and wad not. Cya ard fren, all the best in wadeva u do. Friendships remain unbroken by time :)

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Teachers

Oh man... i just cant stop writing... teachers! the very base/source of our education. Teachers themselves were once students, and they too have experienced what we're going thru right now, thus they can truly know how to handle us, and how to interact and get us to learn in the right way. This also depends on the level of commitment of the teachers. Not trying to sound biased, but diff levels of education institues haf vastly diff teaching styles - thus the system of meritocracy.

I feel very grateful/indebted to teachers. the chinese saying 'yi4 ri4 wei2 shi1, zhong1 sheng1 wei2 fu4', takes its meaning, and portrays the love and bond between teachers and students. Teachers are the pillars of our education, the model people that we take after and learn correct moral values from, people whom we respect and treat with admiration as they impart invaluable information to us. Think of it - some teachers can just slack off and get paid, and then blame it on the class, but no, good teachers put in extra effort to MOULD students, through trust, freedom, and care. This is what i really admire.

Its always fascinating how human beings can evolve into such intelligent beings - teachers. There are many types of teachers around - good and not so good, to bad. Luckily, those in AJC and Chinese High are on the good level. What's most important in this teacher-student relation is the social bond between them, and this applies to uniform groups where leader-junior relation is counted. There must never be a generation or authority gap between these two, else the relation will be strained and unnatural. In uniform groups, leaders should be firm and strict during drill, but a normal and good friend after. Such leaders earn respect easily. What we dont want is after training, we treat each other like strangers, not even saying a 'hello' or 'bye'. Hmm.. this leads to me thinking about the issue of 'hi-bye' friends... abit awkward but.. oh well back to topic.

In the case of the more personal teacher-student relation, teachers should be kind, understanding, and caring. They should be commited and try their best to bring the students to greater heights, not at the expense of welfare. They should also maintain good friendly ties with the students, such that students feel at ease when conversing with teachers and can really confide in them, thus teachers can analyze problems better. If i were a teacher, i would give the best to my students, and respect them as an individual. I would not demand permanent handing up of homework, but i would encourage them to do it for their own good. Education is all about self-motivation, and doing it if u like it. *I really dont see the point in being forced into hurriedly copying work and learning nothing in the process* im sure teachers are aware of that...

Probably one could rebut that its a matter of self-discipline and managing ur time, but... there comes a time when its nearing exams, that we really cannot manage btw doing homework and studying - how are we expected to read the loads of notes when we're supposed to do loads of homework? haha but its not like i do even when there isnt exams :P im a slacker. yes the homework may help in our results, but we need to get a better grasp first. Boy i hope ms ng can read this. I really sincerely mean it, in a nice way. Back to topic, teachers should also be there to help at any time and walk thru the period of stress with the students, only then can that be called leading by example, which derives respect. This may sound perfectionistic, but its what a dream-teacher would be like, and in this case its a reality coz in AJC, some teachers fit this description. Ms Ng, Ms Tengara, Ms winnie Tan, Ms Low, and the lit teachers, all fit this category. Caring compassionate teachers who give encouragement and inject the right words at the right time can really make a difference and bolster our morality and motivate us to work. Teachers who look at the general situation and not scrutinise and pick on minor details, are admirable as well.

For example in Chinese High, i was a super slacker, together with my class, but it was the combined sincere effort of the teachers- their tears, and strenuous efforts at preparing us, making us stay back till late hours and moulding us... together with super-inspiring speeches, that made us snap back to reality... and oh there goes gravity as we realised our mistake. Sometimes all it takes is a little kickstart, to set off that desire for learning. Thus for all their efforts, teachers and parents are but separated by a thin line, just like life and death, though that is more fragile :D Teachers too work as hard as we do and stay up late like we do, so we shouldnt think that 'oh teacher so easy job juz sit back and scold scold scold' lol... they have to mark and analyze our scripts, and think of ways to improve the teaching syst, which is very tough and challenging as well. It isnt nice to judge a teacher straightaway as well, as teachers take time to settle down and warm up with the class. All teachers are generally good, and even if they're not so good, they are doing something good by teaching us, so lets put up with it, and look at a broader scope :)

Taking a closer look, class 34/04 is actually very fortunate to have such nice teachers. Sometimes we just marvel and melt at their passion to help, not to mention shiver at the intense intellect of the lit/history teachers. Its like their brains are a fountain of information..! anywayz, i feel sad talking about 34/04... coz i dunno if i can make it not... i noe i shdnt be so negative, but what if? what if?! But i sure did enjoy myself, during pe sessions, in the toilet!?! lol and every single time spent with friends and teachers, i will remember it for life. Rock on teachers, and friends, you are the air that i breathe. :)

I miss my old school, i miss my cca: NCC

Hey guys and girls, i noe its abit outrageous to post 4 posts in one NIGHT, but ive got nothing else to do lol. Anyway, i got this inspiration from yijun, so, yea ill start talking about it.
Chinese High... my home. I can never forget the blood sweat and tears ive left behind in that school... it is the house of all my emotions, the origin of true friendship, the source of where i get my inspiration and motivation from, mainly because of the wonderful cca that i joined, NCC, and also largely due to my lovely sec4 class, 4O. Yo guys, if you reading this, its a BIG HELLO! HOPE TO SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN!

In chinese high, i could really talk and lame around to full extent! coz the ppl there were, one thing, all boys, but thats beside the point. We could juz click, partly because my batch of close friends were encountered in the LAN shop in the school, and we maintained a 3-yr long friendship. I can really tell all my troubles, trust, and confide in these friends. Three of these friends, one a libra, another a gemini,and the last, a taurus, are my good good friends and i really treasure our friendship. In fact, everyone in 4O is my good friend, i really miss you all. I still recall those days where we partied and played lan and laffed our asses off, a crazy, united bunch of slackers!! Chin hua, u were one of the nice guys too serious, and not to mention jing song, yi chao, shun ting, evan, and everyone else that i might have missed out. I still remember how we used to niao each other, how we got to really understand each other inside out, how we had interesting and intellectual conversations together, how we came to school super early every morn to battle it out at the computer, and how we played wrestling! Those days where we were united in not handing up homework, and sleeping in lessons, rocked. The saying goes: when ur too afraid to look in front, too hurt to look back, look by ur side, ur best friends are there. sighz... guess things come and go, but friendship will always remain, unchanged by time. Take care my friends, Ill always remember you guys. Oh ya, one thing i forgot, here's a tribute to all the teachers who have taught me, in pri sch and in secondary(more of the secondary school side). Thanks for all your kind guidance and patience, it was invaluable, and some of it ill always cling on to in life. We had a ball of a time together, imagine, teachers going out with students to watch movie? wow. we were just like friends. So... yea cheers for teachers!

About NCC, it gave me experience which ill never forget, both in leadership qualities, self discipline(though i lack it), and motivation. It taught me how to lead by example, and how to work as a team, through trust and companionship... probably thats where i get my strong sense of reasoning from.. 4 yrs of friends in the NCC... i cried when we had to part. I still remember the gruelling times we spent together, be it in punishment or drill session, we all endured it together, as a team, as one part. We pushed the lines of our limits, and braved the odds of intellectual challenge. I learnt many survival skills in the many camps and solo nights we had. Fear is something that can be conquered, its just how u view it. Think it this way: everyone is going through it together, if ur scared, others will be scared too. Everyone suffers together, and we're proud of it - standardisation, the will to survive, surpass, and conquer oneself. All the scolding, shouting... all the outings together where we ate and talked cok, and all the after-training-pep-talks, are still fresh in my mind. That kind of motivation derived when everyone, after a gruelling day of rugged training as a team, comes together to enjoy the lessons we've learnt as a team cannot be described. U need to be sitting there amongst the 33 sweaty bodies, and be part of that spirit, listening to the commander's inspiring speech, to be able to feel that team spirit and friendship. The intense repeating of drills and IFC under the scorching sun, coupled with the rantings and ravings of the commanders, somehow made it like a challenge to surpass ourselves, to prove to them that we are capable of doing it. No commander would want to see his section suffer, the scoldings are only to instill a sense of urgency and responsibility. Sometimes, all one needs is a little encouragement, a little zest and company, to make him work, and make him happy, and in turn make others happy. Despite such scoldings, most of us actually go home more satisfied than ever, cause we feel that we have accomplished something that day and are proud of it. Probably thats why i feel so much for friends. NCC has really changed me, but heng i never become fiercer! lol. It really trains u up, mentally and physically. Mental strength of endurance, never to give up easily, and physical... yea. I love to give ppl advice, and we were trained in this during NCC drill-mutuals as well. maybe i shd be a teacher next time... ahh nvm concentrate on studies first ba. Now im in AJC, in another wonderful class, class 34/04 where friends comparable to what ive just described exist. So..life will still carry on, but friends will not be forgotten. Keep in touch, as we've all been doing. :)
Pardon my grammar in what ive just said.. too sleepy. :D i think i go sleep le, ciaoz

where is god when u need him..

yuppie, id better take a break from those values, else i'll go crazy :S. well, as everyone noes, its the devilish period of the promos! And in this period of time we're all behaving like ants on a hot frying pan (CLAO again... sighz :P) Some of us might fall back on our faith - God. Well firstly im a freethinker, so i could try 'amen', 'amitabbha(e mi tuo fuo)' or ... 'ala'? help!!!! i havent revised much man, and the stuff i read keeps slipping away like there's some leakage in my brain... maybe i forgot to turn the tap off... i look around me and ppl are behaving in such a composed manner, which freaks me out even more :S Im sooooo scared of being retained man... i dun wanna leave this wonderful class... :( i noe its no use complaining and crying over not-yet-spilt-milk, but... im trying liao! lets all jia you together! wa... i love writing man... but hor... me abit lame and crappy wan :D like to joke ard too hehez
Sighz... somtimes u just lie on ur bed and gaze at the stars... and dream... and think: WHERE IS MY ROOF?! haha kiddin. sometimes i just wonder, if im doing the right thing. i dont really find study that appealing... well, no one does, but, i feel i can specialise in other things like... finding out what im gonna specialise in. :X Im like in constant self-denial right now... when i pick up the notes and plonk them on my spacious COMPUTER table, i end up playing the computer instead. Mom comes along and questions me, i say 'im doing research on the net' and act guai1. when she leaves i return to the chat windows. sighz... thats life. 'tmr den study lar, sure can wan' when tomorrow comes, 'oh no, today not good for studying, tmr i will read Jude' den when it comes to the test day... 'shit, i go there earlier to revise', and end up sleeping to cover up for lost sleep instead of last minute revising... hmnm... perfect scenario lol.
Anywayz, im gonna hafta really sit down at another table and start working hard for this last week. I dun mind if i get retained really, the only thing i cant put down is this class. so im gonna strive for it, no promises though. I cant concentrate in sch, so ill be cooped up in my cosy home... and practice sleep-studying, which is, study for 5 minutes sleep for 10 minutes kinda thing. works u noe :P very late liaoz... i think i type enuff lame stuff le... see tmr got what story to tell lor. till next time...

Values

When a person is born, he is born crying, while everyone ard him is smiling. Lets beauitfy our lives with things that will end in us smiling, while everyone else cries. :) Everyday we awaken with another chance in life. Sometimes we forget how lucky we are and often forget to appreciate the little things and actions around us, that mean so much. Here's a nice poem i found:

Too often we dont relise what we have until its gone
Too often we wait too long to say 'im sorry i was wrong'
Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our heart
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart
Far too many times we let unimportant things into our mind
And then its usually too late to see what made us blind
So be sure that you let people know how much they mean to you
take time to say the words befre your time is through
Be sure to appreciate everything you've got
and be thankful for the little things in life that mean alot.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we finally meet good ppl, so we will really know how to be grateful for such a gift. When the door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we dont see the other one. Its true that we dont know what weve got til we lose it, but we also dont know what we've been missing till it arrives. Love and friendship comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe though they've been betrayed and hurt before. Trials make you strong, sorrow makes you human, thus its all part and parcel of life. Always put yourself in others' shoes, if it hurts you, it will probably hurt the other guy too.

As the saying goes, a careless word may kindle strife, a cruel word may wreck a life, a timely word may level stress, a loving word may heal and bless. Happy ppl dont have the best of everything, they just make the best out of everything that comes their way. Happiness lies for those who try, those who hurt, those who have searched and tried, ony then can they appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past-let go of the past, live on the future.

These values that ive read, are very touching, and can all be related to friends. Lets cherish what we have... and be a cohesive united entity, without internal strife, or the slightest argument. Sometimes in life, we just gotta let people know how we feel, cause we dont know what might happen tomorrow. We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing that we dont say. And yet sometimes the feeling is so strong that we are driven to use other words/actions to convey what we really mean, and most of the time things never get communicated across. All that is left is the person feeling left out and unwanted. Thus sensitivity plays a large and important role - we must listen for the tone and hidden meaning in words, which often are said indirectly. As with actions, when u receive a scolding from ur parents, all u can hear is the loud naggnig, but what about the 'i love you' or 'i care about you' part beneath in their hearts? Sometimes people require perfection in the friends they seek, so much so that they change to adapt to the likes/dislikes of such ppl. So much so that the reflection they portray in others is not of their true self, so much so that they lose their identity. Why not be urself, and let ppl find and truly appreciate you for what you are, which is where the beauty of friendship lies in.

More than often issues in our lives are spurred by impulsiveness. Once said, things cannot be undone, thats the harsh reality of life. Thus i think we shd think b4 saying stuff; though its not advisory to keep stuff bottled up, some stuff just cant be said, as it will affect people and their thoughts/emotions. Peace is what is needed in this world. People hear words but dont listen to the actions/facial expressions. Some ppl only listen for rejection or misunderstanding, and do not hear the tone, be it love or anger. Sometimes ppl offend you while not knowing it, and perhaps it could be nice to let him noe, maybe in an indirect way. Its not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone, where u can sort out your thoughts and enjoy the sweetness of solitude. But if friends are totally non-existent, then we wont be what we are today. It is not about being present WITH someone, but TO someone. Stay close to the friends/family that helped make you what you are today, cherish them. :) I dont know... life is so confounding... perhaps at this stage... where all the thoughts just flood in. Sometimes you just question urself: what is life? why am i living this episode where everything seems so confusing? I dont know, and will keep trying to find that answer. Till then, next post ba :)

Friends..

Hi all, my first attempt to create a blog. Recently some issues in our class inspired me, after a period of sadness, to write a long essay to attempt to help a friend. As such, ive poured most of my emotions into them, and they are the basic ways i lead my life, which i wish to share with everyone on my blog. I hope this can make a difference, and ive compiled all the entries ive made in here. It might be abit long though, but its worth to re-read in the future.

Hi guys, hope i can do some peace around here. no one is born perfect, everyone has his/her bad points, thus i think we should all learn to adapt with each other in order to live on in peace, harmony, and happy social cohesion in a social community. Be happy always! Let things that irritate u burn just for that moment then forget about it ba, forgive and forget! its a virtue! To err is human, to forgive is divine. By spreading/radiating happiness ard you, not only will u feel better, others will too. Also by forgiving the guy, it puts you above the rest.

Sometimes it aint nice to be criticised or put down by others, thus i think we shd be more feeling and understanding of things, and put ourselves in others' shoes and feel for what they might feel. Hmm, as friends we should be there for one another and work together, not be picky :) at least thats how i live my life, i accept ppl for what they are; if there are bad points, i live with it and dont make a fuss, and sometimes, ppl arent what they seem in a group. Spend time with him/her in private and u might find a side u never knew, as ive experienced. Some ppl who are quiet in class might talk alot in private too :)

Kindness originates from the heart, and we should all learn to be nice to everyone, be it nice, bad, ugly, goodlooking, or wad not, and make him/her feel wanted, feel that he/she belongs to something he/she can trust, make him/her feel he can contribute and feel happy as we all shall be, forever, in our lives as we meet new and different ppl. As a class, we are united and rock/kick ass!! But, ppl shdnt be left behind; everyone is a friend, even those that u dont know or are just acquaintances, we should all radiate warmth and happiness towards them and put a returning smile on their lips as well; and friends stand by you through troubles, and we should cherish that, and look over those bad points. Bad points seen in positive light could be uniqueness, and if we all remain positive, happy, and light hearted, things would be so much better! in chinese, yuan4 yuan4 xiang1 bao4 he2 shi2 liao3(paiseh i never take CLAO) why bury hatred/agitation in a class, where unity and harmony should be present? Forgive and forget guys! :) I really hope everyone can be happy and peaceful, both inside and out, only this way can we improve even further at our already rock-on present state, with EVERYONE happy and joyous in unity!! :) jia you 34/04, i love ya guys!!! ;)

To add in some things that i forgot, sensitvity, and the whole issue about 'cold war politics'. I feel that sensistivity is the key to maintaining friendships, and relations which, in this case isnt that applicable. Sensitivity in emotions, moods, can really help in fostering good friends as u noe how and when to react to diff mood swings or facial expressions of the person, and try best not to hurt him/her. for me, i think of what i say b4 i say it, and try not to offend anyone.

About the Cold war politics, i think that if we be friendly and accept everyone for what they are, and be open-hearted, open-minded, and constantly preach the priceless value of 'forgive and forget', or 'be happy always'(my motto), then mutual agression would not have occured. Its just a spark of events occuring, all interlinked. First agitation over minor issues blooms into hatred, then hatred has a negative impact on the accused, thus he would naturally lapse into defence mode and retaliate at the least aggression. U dont normally see friends retaliating do you? even the most loud-mouthed/crude person would treasure friendship and be nice. I hope we can all try to see both sides of the situations. Yes some may say that a person keeps repeating his mistakes and doesnt change, but if we keep on adopting such an attitude toward that person, he'll NEVER change, not trying to say that he wont change la, and in a way, we are not changing too...ironic huh. and if we keep criticising/putting him down, it wouldnt reflect well on ourselves too :) well, it takes both hands to clap, and we should juz cool down and forgive and forget yea... it isnt good to bear grudges or wad not, esp in the working world next time. I hope we can all learn something from this, and learn to let it go.

Friends are hard to come by, and we miss old friends, as new ones come. For me, i try to make my friends happy and compromise/stand up for them, and i really cherish what we have gone through together, thus me writing this essay tonight, at 12.37am. Some friends talk more than others do, some friends understand each other personally more than others do, but we are still friends. For those who understand each other more, it is their duty to shine light on misconception, thus i hope u all can understand :( I feel abit sad when i see some ppl putting him down...its not that im siding with him or anything, i usually sit back and observe in class, and this is unbiased judgement. i mean, if u put urself in his shoes, u would probably lapse into a greater rage. To forgive puts u above the rest, and makes u a whole lot better. It doesnt matter if the person does not change, but if u forgive him, it will be anyhow better than the current state of aggression. But people have feelings, if lets say the whole class suddenly accepts a person, he/she will be real touched and realy change. We should appreciate people for what they are.

I dont think anyone wants to be mean in this world, perhaps its just their character(might want to check out on horoscopes to effectively handle this), and they cant control it. I dont know how i might sound to other ppl reading this, but i sincerely mean what i say and am just trying to help a friend, who belongs to our class, who has gone thru more than half a year with us. Any enemy, cohabiting with you, for that period of time, would have become a friend. And friends are what makes the world go round! without friends, the whole purpose of life and interaction goes down the drain. The world would be a place of dark solitude. Thus why impose, or rather, indirectly impose such a world for certain ppl when we can juz open up our minds and hearts, show a little more care and concern for friends, show sensitivity, radiate love and justice, and everything will go smoothly! rock on 34/04!

Each of everyone's actions or words can have the slightest impact on any person, be it good or bad, we never will noe. If he voices it out, it could be for the better, or it could take an offending stance. But if he keeps it in, it will only accumulate, and accumulation till such a point where LDMR sets in, and it will burst out in a fit of rage or something. I mean, why not let our every little action brighten the lives of people around us. Its a good thing to do. We shd stop harping over who's character is wrong, whether the virtual world has to be restricted or not. Everyone has flaws, even people typing comments too, im sure uve been in such a situation b4, how have u felt? the same, depressed, rejected way? the feeling of rejection is cold and bitter, it can really make your day worse... i get very sad too when i see friends getting together to put down someone?! hey hey, we should cherish friendship, and not cherish the putting down of friendship. Not saying that anyone is not being a good friend or wad, guys and girls in 34/04 rock. But sometimes we juz gotta learn to live and let live, learn to let go that lump in our hearts. A minor event can easily be forgotten, or kept for memory's sake, but shd never be accumulated. This will breed a hatred in us that we've never seen b4, and we will be quite shocked when informed by bystanders; changnig into someone we're not, from the original kind-hearted person that we are. This is wad's happening to people who get outcasted... i can cry for their feelings... no one is there for them to lean on... when they fall, they fall hard... id much rather bear the bad points (if there REALLY is any), and let them fall on a friend, and encourage them.

About blogs, i agree that it is a place dedicated to yourself, you can write anything u want on it, personal feelings, dislikes, anything. It is open to viewer discretion, i mean, if a person is truthful about himself and his thoughts, it should be ADMIRED, not hated, even if what he says might not be a little pleasant, but he has freedom of thought and speech. Freedom, a very important aspect of friendship as well; friends should not be possessive or try to RESTRAIN themselves just because of minor issues. Friends appreciate each other for their unique self, and that's wad each and everyone of us cherish in a friend. When u read a negative comment on a blog, it might just sting awhile, but its no cause for hatred! we shd all look at the general situation, and not juz keep concentrating on the bad points, as such, we will never see the depth or truth. I hope im not talking like i know the whole situation, i dont, but i do noe a friend here is in need, of company, of the love that everyone else has in them, to brighten his day, make school a more attractive place to live in. Ever wondered why i never skipped sch? though it can be very sian, but, there are friends there to brighten ur day, to share ur troubles and go thru the day with you. yea.. we can give advice or tell a person what's wrong with his character, in a nice way, which is what we've been doing, but try not to bear any hatred in the process.

Yes some ppl dont like to be told what to do, or their pride stands in the way, but, thats how people are made right? no one is perfect. A useful quote: 'when you see that the world has turned its back on you, look again, maybe u turned ur back on the world' This can be applied to both parties, thought provoking :) well, soemtimes the world does revolve around a person, but in this case, some of us made the world revolve around that he/she, such that he lives his life in solitude now, feeling depressed, that he cant fit in. We should never think that 'oh if you dont like it then transfer'. Then how about ourselves who are enjoying our time in the class? i feel that everyone should have a share in the joy and friendship bond. A person has the right to do what he/she deems right, as yes no doubt this might irritate some, but juz be a little light hearted and open-minded on stuff, and it'll blow over easily and friendship can still prevail. We should not keep on thinking negative, if so anyone can keep finding faults in a person. Yes u may rebut that if we keep thinking positive, the guy will seem perfect too, but, why think negative when life can be so much happier and more cheerful when u think happy?! Think of it as a long distance race, with a friend by your side, providing encouragement, we can complete the race together, never running alone, always being motivated, so lets not let our friends in class, or be it any type of friend, anywhere, run/walk alone. I hope what ive said/done can help patch up or move some ppl into seeing both sides, and cherish friends that we have. Its already at the end of the year... some of us may not make it.. thats why at this last moment, we should CHERISH FRIENDS ALL THE MORE! give them the respect they deserve and in turn you'll feel better when they smile back. Lets not lose this friendship... *cries* ill... see u all... hopefully... next year... :(jia you 34/04, love ya forever