where is god when u need him..

yuppie, id better take a break from those values, else i'll go crazy :S. well, as everyone noes, its the devilish period of the promos! And in this period of time we're all behaving like ants on a hot frying pan (CLAO again... sighz :P) Some of us might fall back on our faith - God. Well firstly im a freethinker, so i could try 'amen', 'amitabbha(e mi tuo fuo)' or ... 'ala'? help!!!! i havent revised much man, and the stuff i read keeps slipping away like there's some leakage in my brain... maybe i forgot to turn the tap off... i look around me and ppl are behaving in such a composed manner, which freaks me out even more :S Im sooooo scared of being retained man... i dun wanna leave this wonderful class... :( i noe its no use complaining and crying over not-yet-spilt-milk, but... im trying liao! lets all jia you together! wa... i love writing man... but hor... me abit lame and crappy wan :D like to joke ard too hehez
Sighz... somtimes u just lie on ur bed and gaze at the stars... and dream... and think: WHERE IS MY ROOF?! haha kiddin. sometimes i just wonder, if im doing the right thing. i dont really find study that appealing... well, no one does, but, i feel i can specialise in other things like... finding out what im gonna specialise in. :X Im like in constant self-denial right now... when i pick up the notes and plonk them on my spacious COMPUTER table, i end up playing the computer instead. Mom comes along and questions me, i say 'im doing research on the net' and act guai1. when she leaves i return to the chat windows. sighz... thats life. 'tmr den study lar, sure can wan' when tomorrow comes, 'oh no, today not good for studying, tmr i will read Jude' den when it comes to the test day... 'shit, i go there earlier to revise', and end up sleeping to cover up for lost sleep instead of last minute revising... hmnm... perfect scenario lol.
Anywayz, im gonna hafta really sit down at another table and start working hard for this last week. I dun mind if i get retained really, the only thing i cant put down is this class. so im gonna strive for it, no promises though. I cant concentrate in sch, so ill be cooped up in my cosy home... and practice sleep-studying, which is, study for 5 minutes sleep for 10 minutes kinda thing. works u noe :P very late liaoz... i think i type enuff lame stuff le... see tmr got what story to tell lor. till next time...