ok here goes. RELIGION

i feel that, yes religion does give u faith and belief, and the motivation and love of being loved is a powerful tool to success and security, but i think i just wanna believe there is a god, and appreciate that he is always there, and this recognition i find it quite adequate. i really .. dun wanna go for any church thing... i wouldnt say it restricts my freedom but, i wouldnt say it doesnt either. id like to remain a freethinker and let my god believe in me as i do believe there is a higher being above. and ive been to a few church meetings. the ppl are great, the processions are meaningful... but somehow i cant find what i need or want to find, according to a friends description. yes we must open our hearts to him and accept him, but that can be done at a mental/spiritual level which doesnt need physical presence. im not a guy chiseled for religion ... im too flighty and carefree to ... sorta make it a point to be settled down in one. but, i do believe in miracles that god can give us, and most of all, i do believe in moving tales that people tell me, and yes i do believe there is a god above. yea when u talk about the nice things and miracles that occur, u cant not believe there is a god around. and this feeling is a warm feeling of security and acceptance, of the fact that a higher being above sacrifices for us and looks over us. such worthy actions are indeed worth our action of gratitude, though god doesnt demand anything in return im sure. yup.

the spiritual communion between us and this higher being is, powerful. those who haf had a brush with death will be much more into religion because they find that life is so precious, and that someone out there must haf saved them. i guess im too stagnant/lethargic to get such a feeling... or maybe im not enthu enough. sometimes i dun even feel like going out to play when my friends ask me to. its all a matter of perception. yes i do 'wow' at those god-created miracles. i respect such happenings and acknowledge the creator. but id like to keep it at that respectable level and not one of worship. yet. not anytime now.

ahh yes the fact that god created us. yea... its truely mystical and magical about this omnipresence, this higher being who moulded us into what we are today. god is as real as anyone would be if u pinch him/her. that is absolutely true. god created us, then sacrificed to help wash our sins away, a truly noble act and worthy of our respect. i believe god respects everyone of us as much as we respect him. god can be any form of god. buddha, ala, jesus, all can be called god, and this is an affirmation in our hearts that someone great exists for which scientific reason cannot explain. god has gives everyone a chance, and appears unexpectedly in our lives to change us. tts what miracles are for. and by doing that, he did it of his own free will. we didnt give him a chance to come into our lives, we just accept the fact, and he comes into our lives of his own will. thus this spiritual relation exists on a mental or metaphysical realm, and the degree of commitment varies, but the respect is constant. as long as one recognises god is present, i think he will be more than content, and if we do not sin, we are all..followers of god, having a relation with him, undeniably linked to him in our thoughts and actions, marvelled when he makes an appearance in our lives, not by chance, by choice. having a relation can be on a mental level, not necessarily physical. sometimes, friends care for each other much more than what they show on the surface. yea its wonderful to experience the love of god that my friend has told me about, and wants to share it with me by bringing me closer to god, but god in all his grace and glory, will open the hearts of people and lead them in the correct path, like our destiny has been written out for us. sometimes, we can approach such a matter in a detached way. haha i really appreciate my friend sharing such life changing experiences. its shocking. my life has changed ALOT as well... with or without god i dunno. but the fact that changes in our lives are the silent work of god, can mean choosing to silently repay this impact is ... adequate. by accepting what he does and not sin, we are in fact, following him and moving with his grace, not sinning. jesus loves all of us! just as we love the fact that he exists and his wonderful love for us. thus by accepting this we are opening our hearts. i can easily open my heart to him.. its quite an easy task to do requiring little flexibility. just like friends: we have so many friends that its impossible to care and haf a close relation with everyone of them, thus hi-bye friends occur, and to know someone doesnt necessarily require a close relation. a universalist like me would rather believe in the general God which exists, in a detached way, meaning free from all the physical presentation. yes god yearns for all of us to follow him. and only thru a close relation with jesus can we get to the Father. the fact that jesus wants to show he is a living god, means he is gvnig us the opportunity to follow him; quoted from the bible, by my friend. but i choose to follow him, of my own free will. in a detached way. well, i believe god respects our decision. in times of fear, we pray to God though sometimes we dont worship him. why? becoz in our hearts god exists always. and this silent detached form of 'worship' is quite enough for me.

Religion truly is a baffling thing, something that we choose, to follow or not to follow. why are there so many different representations of god? when all we need to believe in is just his omnipresence, and respect such a belief? the fact that many gods exist show uncertainty. beautiful is such a certainty, yet uncertainty is more beautiful. id like to live in a world of uncertainty, where miracles come to drop a sparkle in ur life. no direct references or criticism in here at all, just an open discussion and what i feel. so, im temporarily, not ready to attend any church or be a christian. god bless.